Monday, February 21, 2011

The good lord giveth and the good lord taketh away.

Dear God,
I lost a really good friend last Thursday. Mike was like a grandfather to everyone. He will be missed so much. The funeral is tomorrow and I am still sad. Please give me the strength to make it through the next few days, and the courage to face everyone. I just don't know. Please watch over Mike's family. I have known them all for years, they are good people that I am sure are grief-stricken. Help my friend, She hurts so deeply when anyone passes away. She needs a guiding hand to help her through these troubles. Somedays she is all I have.I have been worried about School, and this person that I love so much. Who am I kidding? I am in love with my ex still, I worry about him I don't know what to do. Help me to find a constructive way to demonstrate my feelings without taking things too far. I need you to tell me the words to tell Scott. How to comfort him, how to help him heal.  Things get too hard at school lately, and I dont want to be there anymore. This poem reflects how I feel at school and the things I have been through there.

I Swear…

One word
Spat distastefully from someone’s mouth
Like projectile vomit.
It is hissed again in my ear
Echoing, stinging, I can feel it.
It burns a hole.
I sit numb, staring into the window;
Staring into space.
Ignoring the occasional flick to the back of my head
I grip the cords of my MP3 player.
Adjusting  the buds in my ears
The music blasts through my head
Like a cold gust of wind.
I can’t avoid them
The words are thrown at me like darts.
I pick up what’s left of my dignity
Polish it on the sleeve of my T-shirt.
Heat spreads across my face
Anger coursing through my veins
I walk away
Try to be the bigger person.
It does no good.
They come after me, an angry swarm of bees.
Insults hurled at me
Whispered ridicules as I pass in the hallway
Curious stares, hate drenched glares.
There is no escaping them
I want to melt into a puddle
So they can’t hurt me anymore
I wish I was invisible
A shadow on the wall
But that’s impossible
I want to curl up in the fetal position
But that would be letting them get the best of me
Instead I stand straight
Comfort comes from somewhere above
A loving hand guides me through the crowd
I will not cry; I have hope.
My faith will make me strong
They won’t bring me down today
I swear.

I know I am just one person down here on earth, but please dont forget about me.
Show me the way to your kingdom, so I can help others find the path as well.Love,

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Miracles Do Happen

Dear God,
I have so much to be thankful for today. After a long night, a lot of tears and prayers and with your strength I got through to a boy who was hell bent on suicide. I got him to realize, maybe only temporarily, that life is indeed worth living. As soon as he warms back up to me, I will show him your light. I have been given a second chance and I will not screw up this time. I will be the person you called me to be. I will not let the ways of the world lead me astray, I wont fall to the pride again. I will rise above and show Satan that he has no more power over me.

"So when this corruptible shall have put on incorruption, and this mortal shall have put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written, Death is swallowed up in victory. O death were is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory? The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ."
1 Corinthians 15:54-57

Thank you for blessing me with as second chance to make things right again, and teach me to witness to him. Teach me the right way to love, and Help me to move forward on your path to heaven. In Jesus name,

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Welcome to my Newest Blog!!

Well for all of you followers, I have changed my blog again. Now I am committing my blog to God. Every new post will start out Dear God, and will be in the form of a prayer. Hopefully I will renew my faith in Jesus and bring others to Christ through this blog. If anyone out there needs help, advice or are seeking a friend. Leave a comment or message me, and I will be happy to visit with anyone. I also have another friend on here that has a very inspirational message to share with you. Sometime I will figure out a way to put her link on the side bar, so you can view her blog and hear her story. Hopefully we can help bring some people to Christ and motivate you to live your life for the Lord. If anyone has questions, again, feel free to message me.
I love you all

Wednesday, February 2, 2011